The Other Side of Christianity: Even Jesus Wrestled by Brandi J. Ray
The Other Side of Christianity: Even Jesus Wrestled
As a child, I remember
struggling with the theological aspect of Christianity. I understood the
experiential concept of having a relationship with Christ. I honestly had no
choice but to serve in the earlier parts of my life. But being raised
Baptist-Christian and having attended Catholic school, some concerns circled my
mind. However, no matter where I turned to answer some of my questions –
whether it was to the Saints in my family, the teachers in my school, or the
Pastor of my church, I was often told, “Don’t question God.” Instead of
answering those weighty questions and appealing to my intellectual curiosities,
I was given this speech about how “Jesus paid it all,” and that should be
enough for me. But it never was.
Throughout my life’s
journey, I have surmised that as Christians, we often romanticize the crucifixion. Yes, romanticize. We tend to describe something far more beautiful and
appealing than what it really is. Theoretically, yes, we should venerate
Christ’s sacrifice on Calvary – after all, it is the
basis of our faith. However, very seldom do we acknowledge the complexities of
the weight of Christianity. We tell these stories especially to non or immature
believers about how accepting Christianity is the most beautiful and
life-changing experience we will ever confront. But, the harsh reality is that
both experiential and theological approaches to Christianity come with
bittersweet compromises that the self often wrestles with. Even Jesus wrestled.
The Weight of the Invitation: Matthew 26:38-40
When we meet Jesus in
Matthew 26, we find Christ hosting the Last Supper with the disciples. It is in
this scripture that we learn one of the familiar phrases, “The spirit is
willing but the flesh is weak.” It is this declaration from Christ that
encompasses the Christian’s everyday struggle. The spirit of the Christian is
by far always willing, but our flesh (our minds and our hearts)
are weak to the point of also always wrestling. The same could be said of Christ in
verses 38-39.
What we should know
at this point is that Jesus is preparing for death. In a few short verses
later, Judas will come to betray Jesus and offer Him up to the Pharisees. And
while Jesus has the foresight of what will take place, the burden or the weight
of the call heavily weighs on Jesus as He turns to God and prays.
Each translation offers
different synonyms to describe Jesus’s mindset. In verse 38, some translations
state that Jesus was:
·
The Voice:
overwhelmed with grief
·
The AMP: His soul is
deeply grieved
·
The Passion: His
heart is overwhelmed and crushed with grief
Each of these pointing
to an all-knowing Christ hurting by the task which lies ahead. The following
verse, verse 39, shares that Christ then directly turns to God and prays:
·
The Voice: “Father, this is the last thing I want If there is any way, please take this bitter cup
from Me.”
·
The AMP: “My Father,
if it possible [that is, consistent with Your will], let thus cup pass from Me.”
·
The Passion: “My
Father, if there is any way you can deliver me from this suffering, please take
it from me.”
While Jesus understood
the assignment and knew that regardless, He would have to complete the assignment, it still was a cumbersome burden to carry.
This example of Christ’s
wrestles is not to diminish His desire to please and serve God.
The closing prayer of verse 39 directly shows that Christ was willing to give Himself to God how God had commanded
of Christ. However, Christ shows that even the greatest of those called still wrestle
with the implications of the self. The agony of knowing that death was upon Christ sent
Christ into an overwhelming state to the point of grief and despair. Who and
what Christ was expected to be burdened Christ, although it would eventually glorify God.
Christ was very honest with God about having fears and took those fears directly
to God.
The Weight of Arriving: Matthew 27:46
When we meet Christ
again in the next chapter, Matthew 27, Christ has been condemned to death and
is on His way to making the ultimate sacrifice. By verse 45, Christ is at the
brink of death, already suffering on the Cross.
Theologically,
theologians have concluded that Christ’s cries in verse 46 is parallel to the
prophecy in Psalms 22 about the Messiah’s suffering. However, nonetheless, it
does not take away from the cry which Christ offers back to God.
The AMP and the Voice
state that Christ calls, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken me?” while the
Passion translation uses the term, “deserted me.” Each of these showing that at
some point, Christ felt that God had departed from Him.
Again, theologically,
God had to depart from Christ. Christ could not complete the
crucifixion without God having left Him. Why? Because
for Christ to save our souls from the damnation of Hell, Christ couldn’t have
done this with God at His side. Theoretically, it would defeat the purpose of
Christ’s crucifixion.
But, contextually,
Christ’s plea in Matthew 27:46 shows a pivotal and very honest plight of the
Christian – that even in fulfilling God’s will, one can feel
disconnected and departed from God.
It was no fault of
Christ that God had departed from Him. Christ did not frustrate God, nor was He
being reprimanded. In the very moment, Christ was crying to God; Christ was
making the ultimate act of glorification to God. However, Christ showed that even the
weight of accepting the invitation to do God’s will is not always beautiful nor
easy-going. It sometimes comes with an authentic and troubling agony on the flesh and
makes you question whether or not God has forgotten the faithful servant.
The Weight of the Sacrifice: Luke 23:46
Luke 23 is parallel to
Matthew 27, whereas they both detail the final physical human moments of
Christ. However, Luke’s detailed description includes the last words of Christ
on the Cross to include His total and devout surrender to God.
Scientifically and
theologically, all have debated on the matters of how Christ
died. Some indicate that Christ couldn’t have died by crucifixion alone in a
matter of hours, at least. While others propose that God magically killed Christ. But the answers to what caused
Christ’s death are apparent in verse 46 alone.
·
The Voice: “Father,
I entrust My spirit into Your hands.”
·
The AMP: “Father,
into Your hands I commit My Spirit.”
·
The Passion:
“Father, I surrender my Spirit into your hands.”
Despite the debates,
verse 46 makes clear that Christ sacrificed Himself. Christ entrusted,
committed, and surrendered His being to God. He no longer wrestled
with Himself and, therefore, rested in the glorification of God. He offered
Himself wholly and entirely to God’s will and presented Himself and His entire being
to that of God.
While these words do not
indicate any struggle or wrestle, unlike the first two scriptures examined, the
importance of this action and these words describe the absolute struggle in
which the Christian experiences.
The question becomes,
“How do I move myself from wrestling to reconciling with God?” And what Jesus
exemplifies is that the answer is quite simple – you die to self.
The Other Side of Christianity: Matthew 16:24-26
Right before we begin to
follow Jesus [in this present blog] in Matthew 26, Jesus had a serious charge
for the disciples in Matthew 16. In the 16th chapter, we meet Jesus in a place
where the Pharisees constantly try and persuade Jesus to prove to
them that He is the Messiah. In the next section, Peter makes the confession on
behalf of the disciples that Christ is the Messiah. Jesus then shares with the disciples
the truth about His purpose and the matters of the crucifixion. However, in the
final verses, Jesus tells the disciples the truth about the other side of Christianity – you will have to deny yourself.
The Passion translation
tells us that you must reject and disown your own life. The AMP says you must set aside your
selfish interest and express a willingness to endure whatever may come.
Likewise, the Voice records that you must deny yourself the things you think you want. The common theme in each of these translations: you
must fully offer yourself to Christ, as Christ fully offered Himself to God.
When I tell you that we all wrestle
with God, I mean it. We
all wrestle with God. We
all wrestle with God on our interests, wants, and ideas versus His. Each of us
quarrel and conflict with whether what we are doing is right. We all come to a
place where even when we think God has commanded us, we still feel disconnected.
Like Jesus, we all can feel that there is a weight to accepting the call to
surrender wholly to God.
But what makes Jesus
peculiar is that He didn’t take this wrestle to the disciples, to His mother,
or even the Rabbis. Christ sought God directly. He spoke to God directly. He
took each issue and matter up with God. From His wrestle to accepting the
weight of death to dying on the Cross and feeling forsaken – He spoke to God.
And even after feeling that God had deserted Him, He still entrusted His spirit
to God.
Like the others in my
life, I don’t want to romanticize Christianity for you. Instead, I want to
reassure you that even our greatest teacher quarreled. I do this not to sow
doubt but to deliver you from the condemnation of thinking that Christianity
means perfection. For us, accepting God doesn’t always mean that we accept His
ways instantaneously. While we are most confident and aware of what it takes to
be a Christian, our flesh isn’t always willing to meet the demands. But, it is
okay. Some of us will have to die to ourselves, on our Cross, every day. Every
day and sometimes even every moment, we have to make the same plea of Luke
23:46 and entrust, commit and surrender. The beauty of this is that Jesus’s
death did cover us when we can’t even admit that we need covering.
So, today, I speak to
you to remind you that wherever you are in the entrusting, committing, and
surrendering process – don’t fear speaking those doubts, fears, and worries to
God. Like Jesus, make your requests known to God. Even when you feel that God
has departed from you (which, He hasn’t), still be in conversation with Him. It does not make you
any less of a Christian to express concerns – it makes you honest about where
you stand, what you need and, who you need. All things which God is more than willing
to answer and to deliver.
May this season of your
life bring you to a place where you are honest with yourself and God about how
you need God to operate so that you can entrust, commit and surrender to
glorifying Him.
Be kind to yourself,
Mrs. Brandi J. Ray
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